whats faith if i cant believe
its everything
a cure but i make it a disease
God take me because i hate me

What you've gone and done now,
It's hard to get over
Events of the past have carried
A lasting grudge toward a pure heart

Our hopes and dreams and our worst nightmares.
Our worst nightmares have now come true.
Tonight when this deep sleep falls on men.
Driven by an instinct more powerful than life itself.
From honor, to hope, from hope to devastation.

Life as we once knew it is dead
Pick up the pieces, saying goodbye
Has never been so hard

in a world passing through my fingers.
I still chase the wind.
How quickly I forget...
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget...
That this is meaningless
what have I learned from yesterday?
what have I learned from yesterday?

UnderOath-Alone in December

The Human Abstract-Nocturne

Norma Jean- Songs Sound Much Sadder

Inhale Exhale-Redemption

As I Lay Dying-Confined

cause he tells you that he loves you

then he kisses you and swears

but when you wake up

hes already gone

I cant tell you how it hurts me to see you cry

when you lay in bed everynight

promising him good bye

but then there he is on your door step

and you fall into his arms yet again

he tells you that he loves you

he knows all the right words

and they just happen to speak to your  heart

you tell your self this is the last time

now you dont even care he isnt there when morning comes

i cant tell you how it hurts me that you dont care

one day youll close the door

even though he promises you his love

i cant tell you how proud i will be

this isnt really about anyone...jsut so you know

one day ill fly again

one day ill be the person you thought i was

I feel like a grounded angel

waiting to take flight

with my pair of wings bound up tight

my life couldnt be meant for this

I feel much more should be done

one day ill live again

one day ill be the person i feel i should be

I feel like a dog trapped in a cage

waiting to be free

free from this prison im in

my life couldnt be meant for anything else

I feel I should have done something it a little different.

I cant even explain how I feel right now.

Im stuck in two worlds and  want to be in either.

I want to be in one world and have these "what ifs"

I also want to be in a another world but also have these "what ifs"

I need to make a decision on what I really want.

But its not that simple.

I could be semi happy in either world.

I really could.

but semi happy just dosent cut it.

ugh...i hate myself right now.

I remember what I loved doing once...

I loved being in drama groups. I loved it. I miss it alot. I want to do it again one day.  I was good at it to.